Memory Loss
Forgetfulness and Guilt
I completely forgot that yesterday was Friday.
I find it funny how last week I was so hell bent on submitting a blog post, even a short one, so as to not lose my momentum, yet I completely forgot about it this week. I started typing this literally 2 minutes after realizing that I forgot it yesterday and I’m feeling so much guilt about it. And I technically know that there is no need for this - these things happen, right? But my routines are everything to me (as I’ve written before lol) and it felt like my heart dropped off of a cliff after the realization hit. I debated on whether or not it would be better to just wait until next Friday to submit another one, but I think it’s best if I don’t push it. It’s already strange writing this on a Saturday.
But anyway, on to the writing update.
I’ve been re-writing bits and pieces of my first two chapters over and over again lately because there’s this pesky little plot hole problem that I need to fix. Well, it didn’t really start with a plot hole, but I decided that taking another path with the beginning of the story helps it make sense in the long run. However, that is proving to be making it difficult in getting to the next part.
Inserting New A helps B make sense. But now the transition from New A to B is a bit harder to navigate. The transition from Old A to B was simpler and flowed well. I’ve tried to tackle it from several different angles, but whenever I do that I realize that a plot holes sneaks its way in there. I think my next plan of action will be to recycle some of Old A. Not all of it, but the transition was so nice and it made so much sense. There has to be a way of combining them, right? Or maybe I’ll end up going with an even more different version of A. New A 2.0, if you will. I might need to come up with a different name for it though - I’m starting to feel like I’m in the Pretty Little Liars universe with all of this “A” talk. It’s been a while since I’ve watched that show, maybe I should start a rewatch…
For the first two chapters - I’ll figure it out. Next week, though.
I’ll be taking this week to relax for the holiday and take a break from anything and everything even somewhat work related. Who knows, that may be exactly what I need! A change of scenery and no obligations. I’ll be bringing a notebook with me in case any random ideas pop up in my head or if a find a particularly spectacular source of inspiration, but I’m not going to force it. I’ll get back into things next Friday (and I won’t forget the blog post this time!) with a clear head and a fresh perspective.
I hope everybody has a great holiday and finds some peace and relaxation. I feel like it snuck up on us so fast this year (I swear yesterday was Halloween) that we need to take advantage of the time before it passes us by and leaves as fast as it came. Happy Holidays:)