Rediscovering My Passion

Taking the Time to Love and Appreciate Myself 

It’s been a week since I’ve committed myself to getting back in the writing game. 

And dammit, I’m so freaking happy! I had forgotten what that’s like! Don’t get me wrong, my day job is a pretty good one. It pays the bills, is a positive environment, there’s good management - all that jazz. But it’s not something that brings me true happiness and it certainly isn’t something I’m passionate about. It sucks that I became so far removed from what brings me joy, but I’m so grateful that the fire has been re-ignited. I’m very new to the social media game, but even that is a fun new adventure that I’m really enjoying right now. I’ve been writing a few scenes that pop up into my head every so often, but the majority of my time so far has been spent re-reading what I had started before my hiatus. 

I love seeing how the different personalities of each character shine and it’s been a blast to reacquaint myself with each of them (even though they’re temporarily pissed at me for abandoning them….whoops). I’ve laughed out loud for the first time in a long time after reading some of their antics (what can I say, I am my target audience) as well as cringed at some of the parts that need way more work (hellooooo plot holes!), but it’s all been a dream.

Now this isn’t to say that it’s all going to be sunshine and roses - I have too much experience in the game of life to ever think that - but it’s important to keep these moments in the back of your mind so you already have something positive developed to focus on during the times of struggle because that’s a really hard thing to do in the moment. Most of the time, for me at least, the last thing you want to do when you’re in a bad mental place is to devote your limited energy to something that you’re struggling to remember the positives about. Personally, I tend to worry that if I force myself to do things when I’m down or depressed, I’ll start to associate them with the depression and then I won’t love them anymore or they’ll turn into a chore. But recently, I’ve learned that the opposite is true. It serves as a reminder for happiness and allows me to see the light at the end of the tunnel. So more of my effort will be to try and implement that “opposite action” to help me move forward. 

And honestly, it’s not like I can’t stop if it truly ends up being the wrong time to do so. At least attempting it will allow me to know for sure! 

I hope that anyone who sees this takes the time to love and appreciate themselves today. See you next time :)