Retreat

Keeping Yourself Safe

I’m still in the midst of my brain battle - viciously fighting my own brain with the goal of not succumbing to my depression. And in doing that, I’ve found my go to move this last week has been to allow one part of myself to retreat into my mind and try to stay safe there while the other part of myself fights the battle. Eventually these parts switch places, so they can each take a break and breathe. But I have found that a wonderful thing happens when I retreat. 

That part of myself gets inspired. 

When not forced to fight a seemingly never-ending battle, I find that I brainstorm and plot and write a lot better. My daydreams have been vivid - more vivid than they have in a few weeks - and my characters have been speaking with me with a lot more ease. The battle is still hard, but it’s so much easier to fight it knowing that I will still be able to enjoy my writing and have something to look forward to that genuinely makes me happy. 

The next thing I wanted to mention here is that I will be making this blog a monthly occurrence rather than weekly. Writing each week has truly helped me on my journey thus far, but I feel that it is starting to naturally evolve into something that is not required as often. There are some weeks in which I struggle to find something to say or to write it at all. I think increasing the time between each post will allow me to truly gather my thoughts and post with more substance and personality. I still love this writing this blog - and I know it will continue to bring me joy throughout the months to come. 

See you next time!